Mirrors Look @ Me

My only struggle is
To conquer the subconscious
I conscience
This I declare to the great harmony
I recognize
It spirals and everything else is pushed aside
Rewritten in time
Be animal or think, for, and, self
I get these headaches
Is my head a bell?
Who makes your world into hells?
All I had in the desert was a grain of wisdom
Hope of an oasis
All that was given
I melted into the sand to ease my travels
I forgot my initial task
Conquer the infinite
So the quest shall never end
Purpose being
Selfiecide Regeneration